Forget The Apocalypse! Lets Just Let Bipolars Run The Universe

I cant sleep. Nothing really new about that I go in cycles of insomnia quite often actually. Thing is I usually flip out of it in 3 or 4 days max. Well I haven't been sleeping more than 4 or 5 hours since like the 21st. When I go that long without sleep, well I take whatever I can get, even if that means like today sleeping from noon until 7pm when my parents decided it would be a nice, soothing and kind way to wake my up by turning the stereo system as high as it could go and having that startle me awake. And I was having a really nice dream too! Darn it!

Well, I need sleep there is no way around that. So for the past few days my doctor has given me the green light to go ahead and try various sleeping pills pretty much a new one every night until we find something that works. So far I'm on the 4th one. Well last nights didn't work so I was awake (after a short 2 hour nap) from 11 pm until 12 noon today. Then I FINALLY went to sleep on my own. Then was woken up (see above paragraph). Like anyone in my situation, I wasn't too crazy about this. Nah that's too kind, I hated it. I was and still am grumpy I needed sleep and they basically stole that away from me.

Any who I spend about an hour in my room waking up on my own terms and realize that its time for my new sleeping medicine. So I go downstairs and low and behold its nowhere to be seen. I ask my mom about it and she tells me shes hidden it. WAY TO GO MOM! Great parenting there ya know depriving your child of the medicine that she needs according to 2 licensed doctors and a licensed therapist. Yea my moms reasoning (word for word here people) Mom- " You don't NEED THEM!"

Me- "Umm I cant sleep and Dr. Re, Dr. M and Dr. Ru said I do because I cant sleep so can I please have my sleeping medicine?"

Mom- "You haven't been sleeping anyways so CLEARLY YOU DON'T NEED THEM!!!"

Me- "Umm well I kinda do you just said that I haven't been sleeping so maybe I should take a SLEEPING pill?"

Mom- "YOUR NOT ALLOWED TO HAVE THEM BECAUSE YOU CANT SLEEP!"

Me- " Oh because that TOTALLY MAKES SENSE! I mean I cant sleep so by golly lets just deprive me of the medicine that might help me sleep while were at it!"

Mom- "AND YOUR NOT ALLOWED TO NAP EITHER! ha ha ha"

Me- "Oohhh so I cant sleep tonight because your not giving me my medicine and I cant sleep tomorrow either?"

Mom- "Yep"

Me- "Because that makes SOOOOOOOOO much sense! Thanks Mom I don't know what I would do without you and your clearly superior logic skills."

Yea thanks for that mother parent of the year right there. Lucky for me my mom is short like 5 feet tall short so i find it and I go in the big lock box of medicines that we have (Oh you know the one everyone who's bipolar has one! Its the new thing to have! Ours is even fireproof!) find what I need and take them up to my room.

Well she starts making fun of me (yes because that's what all great moms do, find their child's weak spot and poke it with a sharpened spear) because I didn't do well in Chemistry class. I told her that I did great in my MEDICAL class, heck even got an 98 on the exam. Well apparently that's not relevant at all I mean the fact that I'm even going to a state level in HOSA (a health competition!) and I even know how much to adjust her lithium levels when she gets a new medicine and I babysit a diabetic kid and can calculate just how much insulin to give him. But nope I'm a failure because I didn't do well in honors chemistry.

Now my mom is in a chat room with a whole bunch of bipolar people who will inevitably tell her shes right and I'm wrong. Because I mean one crazy, irrational and Illogical person isn't enough lets just add about 14 more to the mix and see what SPECTACULAR ideas they come up with!

Yea, "Were all doomed" was the phrase I was thinking of too.