Trust: Its a delicate thing

So last April I had some tests done and the report came. It was sent to my mother only because I am a minor. I saw it lying on the kitchen counter one day and read it even though my mother and therapist advised me not to. OK, sure I was in the wrong I will admit that and I apologized for my wrongdoings. But this brought up something Ive been thinking a lot about latley; Trust.

Trust. A 5 letter word meaning take all my deepest secrets, fears, desires, hopes and dreams; grind them into a hamburger and devour it. How do you know if you can truly, deeply, 100% trust a person? Some people have the whole " I will trust you until you prove me wrong" attitude while others view it as " I have no reason to trust you so prove it to me and then I will trust you". But really, what is trust? Honestly, does anyone really know?

We all need to be able to trust a person, at least one single person in this entire world of billions of people. But how do we find those we can trust and better yet, how do we deal with it when someone betrays our trust?

Do we choose to ignore it and hope it goes away or do we face it head on, battle axes raised screaming at the top of our lungs in hopes that we will feel better later? Do we bottle it up until it explodes or do we do something productive and hope we can make ourselves feel better afterwords? There are so many ways to deal with it, but what is the right one?

Trust is a delicate thing. Any and all relationships are biased on trust. From a baby trusting they will be fed, to a girl trusting that her heart wont be broken by a boy, to even a pet trusting that when you hold them you wont hurt them. Its a beautiful bond that not only is an unspoken and universal but also a bond between two beings that truly holds humanity together. Once it was said that "All you need is love" and I honestly think that is not true, however, all you need is trust.

But what happens when someone betrays our trust? We have all had to suffer through it; learn from the pain and hope, pray and guard our hearts a little more securely, build walls around ourselves in hopes that we can avoid that feeling of betrayal. And finally find someone new to trust.

We build walls, not to see others struggle to gain our affection, but to protect ourselves from that feeling that no one on earth ever wants to feel. Pain.