Stats

5 deaths in 2 months.
3 Funerals
1.5 Weeks with Dr. R on vacation.
1 Appointment and 2 phone calls with back up therapist.
1 Breakup
8th in the Kaiser Permanente test at HOSA
2 Months since I dx my mother with sleep apnea and she finally gets it checked out
82 Times per hour she stops breathing while sleeping
69% O2 stating while she sleeps
2+ Hysterical breakdowns
86 Sleepless nights
1 Allergic Reaction to my Asthma meds
2 People I pushed away that haven't come back
1 Surgery planned for my mother next month
1 Surgery planned for my mother next month that I don't want her to get
26 Adivans consumed in the past 15 days
1 Asthma attack
2 Days I decided not to go to school for mental rest days
2 Kidneys that are acting up again
7 Days until I have to give a final answer on attending HOSA Nationals 3000+ miles away
3 Days until Dr R gets back
1 Moment at a time is all I can handle
1 Confidence that things will get better (they can't get much worse right now *knock on wood!* )